It has been a long path through grief. Over the past two years, we have ridden the roller coaster ride of pain and suffering. We experience stillbirth...twice. We buried two tiny babies. We even had an early miscarriage in between. We had to explain death to our living children. We have visited the cemetery more times in the last two years than I had ever been to a cemetery in my whole life. Such tremendous loss. However, I have learned many things along the way. I have learned that friends and family are always there when you need them. I have learned that your prayers reach the throne room of heaven on our behalf on our darkest days when we can't find the words to pray. I have learned that tears are sometimes the only prayer I can pray. I have also learned that grief isn't something that you get through or get over. It's something that you integrate into your life. I have learned that it is possible for grief and joy to co-exist. I know that nothing can ever replace the babies that I have lost. But we also know that we have so much love to offer. Life is a gift. It is not to be taken for granted. We want to share our lives with another child. Unfortunately, pregnancy is too risky for us. We have been to numerous doctors and fertility specialists. None of them can find an explanation for three consecutive pregnancy losses after two healthy pregnancies. And even though we have been offered additional fertility treatments, there is no guarantee that they will work. We were told that another loss is possible. That is just not something we are prepared to do. We have suffered enough loss. All we want is a sweet little baby to love, a little brother or sister for our kids to love on. And so we closed the door on pregnancy and fertility treatments and swung the door of adoption wide open! We are looking forward to welcoming a child into our lives. Please pray for us as we begin this journey! Please pray for a good match, for our finances (adoption is expensive!), and for patience (adoption can take a long time!). Thank you friends and family for all you do for us! We'll keep you posted!